One too many
Mahfuza Karlsruhe, Germany
Hi there. Here I thought I would be working all day just before the New Year sets in a foreign country where I am so far away from my loved ones from my family. I thought I would very seriously finish up all that I have been behind in. But guess what, it didn't work that way. It's too quiet here in my office. Almost everyone is on holiday preparing with resolutions for 2005. The silence gives me creepy feelings like I can't make any noise or else the silence will hear me and might mock me for not understanding what it means. Funny right? I have been sitting at my desk doing absolutely nothing, opening Internet Explorer 5.0 and looking through the tragic events from the Tsunami and the earth-shattering quake in the Indian Ocean effecting 11 Asian countries. So many lives have perished into oblivion, children have lost their parents, fathers & mothers have lost proof of their next generation. And men have lost their loved ones as well as women. These people wait for time and news of comebacks or deaths of those missing ones. What a pain that must be! I can't begin to imagine or feel it because till now I have not lost and will not like to lose a loved one, not to another human being or Nature. After getting off work waiting at the train station I tried to imagine what a 35 feet high wave could look like. I couldn't! I tried in all ways by remembering all the details I had read on the e-newspapers and all the pictures I had seen. It helped my imagination a little. I could see this huge dark blue monster coming to grab me and take me away from all that I know all that I have seen and all that still awaits me in the future. And you know what happened, I felt so cold so lonely so sad so out of words to what all those people might have felt when they were taken away by the BIG BLUE. I feel so sorry. Maybe if we just asked for forgiveness to Nature for all our misdeeds for all that we have done wrong to her she would return all those children, women and men she took away, all those homes and food for living. It should work? Right? Like those times when we make a mistake or make an error with our Mom or Dad. Afterwards we would understand or they would make us understand that it was not the right thing to do. And then they would do the most generous thingforgive us. So why can't Nature forgive us? Why not? That's not fair? So many of us mean it when we say, "We are sorry, we won't do it again". So Nature should listen to us. She should give us one more chance to fix up all our mistakes. She is our protector, we love her, we respect her, and we wake up every morning with her blessings. So why doesn't she forgive us just as our own mother would. What is the difference, it is only a mistake? Or maybe just too many to forgive.
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